Fall/Out

Lyrics

I’m a renegade
Living life on the hate you gave
Wanna stop all this bullshit
Just be remade
Can God forgive me?
I’m not innocent
Don’t wanna be your dirty little secret 
In the fallout
Living life like a cast out
When it gets too much
I wanna cash out
Can God forgive me?
I’m not innocent
Don’t wanna be your dirty little secret

In my head again
Can’t see, walls are closing in
I’m just a kid in my room not at peace again
Amnesia got my teens
Felt murder on my sleeve
Lost my senses on a Christmas Eve
I remember, my foot against the door
My back against the wall begging for no more
A song to stop the screams
But there’s no release
It can’t satisfy or set me free
I’m obnoxious with concoctions to provide relief
To find a line we can share where we all can breathe 
I wanna
Find a tribe where we all relate
Make an anthem that can grab them when they start to shake
Cause when you’re all alone
The pain starts to show
It’s connections
Stop the vexing
Force us all to grow 
I break the chain, hold the pain, never say your name
For a love I can’t maintain!

I’m a renegade
Living life on the hate you gave
Wanna stop all this bullshit
Just be remade
Can God forgive me?
I’m not innocent
Don’t wanna be your dirty little secret 
In the fallout
Living life like a cast out
When it gets too much
I wanna cash out
Can God forgive me?
I’m not innocent
Don’t wanna be your dirty little secret

Here I go again
Chasing praise like a wanted man
On a hiding to nothing tryna fix the past
I dance in the fire, walk on the wire
Be a man you can all admire
But it’s irrelevant, here you go again 
Choice was tough so you ran
Took the L again
And it’s not elegant, so pretend again
And we’ll smile, and you’ll wave 
Like I’m dead again…
And I don’t need your tears
I’m shedding all my fears
I left the cave, left the shadows, left the theatre
It wasn’t clear enough, or sincere enough
I need it real so I feel like I’m well enough
But I’m not giving up
Man, I’m welling up…
Doing this for a kid that never had enough
I break the chain, hold the pain, never say your name
For a love I can’t maintain!

I’m a renegade
Living life on the hate you gave
Wanna stop all this bullshit
Just be remade
Can God forgive me?
I’m not innocent
Don’t wanna be your dirty little secret 
In the fallout
Living life like a cast out
When it gets too much
I wanna cash out
Can God forgive me?
I’m not innocent
Don’t wanna be your dirty little secret

Let me ask you something…

Do you believe in god?

I said… 

Do you believe in god?!

I’m a renegade
Living life on the hate you gave
Wanna stop all this bullshit
Just be remade
Can God forgive me?
I’m not innocent
Don’t wanna be your dirty little secret 
In the fallout
Living life like a cast out
When it gets too much
I wanna cash out
Can God forgive me?
I’m not innocent
Don’t wanna be your dirty little secret